he said she couldn’t make it today so he didn’t go, and i’m wondering if this is a sign. he didn’t tell her today like i thought he would, and my heart didn’t break like i thought it would. i’m wondering that maybe this is my chance to tell him how i feel about him? but maybe it’s not. then again i’m not sure what kind of a twisted coincidence it might be that we’re both heading up to the same place but at different times. i could always call him to ask about when he’s next planning to talk to her. but i want to stay firm in the belief that i’m his closest buddy, and that maybe he won’t talk to her after all for the next couple of days because he’ll up north, and that i’m supposed to seize this chance…
but maybe it’s all just twisted logic anyway. what if i tell him and it’s not the right thing to do? how am i supposed to know? sometimes i kind of hope to tell him to mess him up with his girl and that he’ll be spinning with what i tell him that he can’t tell his girl and — oh, i don’t know. i’m a sick person.
still. maybe i should tell him. i was the one saying that you have to tell the person before it’s too late, but … under what circumstances is it best to tell someone? these are bad circumstances, but you can never be too sure….
LOVE SUCKS.
