lol…

“….the more I read your walls to walls the more I’m convinced u guys are pretty much just kinda GOING OUT ALREADY O_O…………wtfudgems?”

AHAHAHA! *faceplant* so embarrassing.

i think it’d be stupid to say that i’m “IN LOVE” with him but i know i care for him and love him as a friend/brother :]

yeah but still. i’m gonna wait for him until he’s more mature. he liked that one girl last winter, then this one over spring break and for both, he stopped liking them after a long break. -.-” he even told me about them all happy and giddy and stuff. the last one liked him back, but then he stopped liking her! so immature. i want him to genuinely like me, not just have some stupid “lol i like you too let’s go out” thing.

 

maybe it’s a sign?

he said she couldn’t make it today so he didn’t go, and i’m wondering if this is a sign. he didn’t tell her today like i thought he would, and my heart didn’t break like i thought it would. i’m wondering that maybe this is my chance to tell him how i feel about him? but maybe it’s not. then again i’m not sure what kind of a twisted coincidence it might be that we’re both heading up to the same place but at different times. i could always call him to ask about when he’s next planning to talk to her. but i want to stay firm in the belief that i’m his closest buddy, and that maybe he won’t talk to her after all for the next couple of days because he’ll up north, and that i’m supposed to seize this chance…

but maybe it’s all just twisted logic anyway. what if i tell him and it’s not the right thing to do? how am i supposed to know? sometimes i kind of hope to tell him to mess him up with his girl and that he’ll be spinning with what i tell him that he can’t tell his girl and — oh, i don’t know. i’m a sick person.

still. maybe i should tell him. i was the one saying that you have to tell the person before it’s too late, but … under what circumstances is it best to tell someone? these are bad circumstances, but you can never be too sure….

LOVE SUCKS.

 

he’s telling her tomorrow

him:she went to watch a movie todayi don’t htink she really wants to watch one tomorrowbut we’ll just hang out ;Dand eat dinnerme: lol.-.-”7:17 PM him: lollhahawhat.would you be excited beyond imagination?

7:18 PM me: err

well

depends

… -.-”

well at least the person you like doesn’t like someone else who’s way more perfect than you :D

at least you ahve a chance :]

him: …

what are you implying :P

7:19 PM me: -.-”

7:20 PM him: haha you’re so cute :D